Somebody Must Have Told Him

 

Nothing in life we see is true,

Try hard but there's no clue,

So give up what else to do,

While no one knows the person you.

He said "It's hard to live",

It's something everyone knew,

So he chose to die and not to live,

Who'll cry, who'll smile he never knew.

If you wanna die there are so many ways you can take, 

But to live you can only walk as soon as you wake, 

If you choose to die sure you'll miss whole lot of pain, 

What about the happiness? don't you think then you'll miss that as same?

No sadness last long forever,

No happiness last long forever,

Life has nothing lasts forever,

But still we live for the word forever.

I think he thought it is meaningless,

But I believe that hope is better than hopeless,

To fight so hard to find a life, meaningful,

I guess he never knew such a thing,
wonderful.

Unlike him I chose to live, maybe it's my weakness,

But I still see a beauty in every single sadness,

Walking through the meaningless road he explains as a war,

I see many interesting stuff, I guess he never saw.

I wonder with those beautiful wings he got, why doesn't he ever try to fly?

When he fell down somebody must have told him, it's okay to cry,

Life is a mixed song with lots of different major and minor keys,

Still I wish somebody must have told him to live to see how wonderful it is.

-Niki-

Harmony To My Life's Melody

 

The sound of rain they say it's their melody,

So I guess the thunder might be their harmony.

But I'm scared of thunder even though I love the rain,

Is it the melody my happiness or will harmony be my pain?

People are living happily while knowing one day the will die,

As I'm looking for my wings while knowing I'm not light enough to fly.

Things I want which will never be mine,

I cry a thousand times while asking "why?"

"Maybe that's how gods want my life to be", I ended up with the same lie,

Hoping one day I'll be able to be happy and to say honestly, "I'm fine".

Everyone trust my fake words, as nobody can see the true myself cry,

The mask which I want to remove, but it's even painful to give it a try.

I've big dreams but I'm scared, that they'll fade once I open my eyes,

So my closed eyes, make me blind, as everyone fools me with so many lies,

But I keep trusting, hoping oneday, light will come without any price,

Maybe you can call me a fool, as I repeat the same mistakes twice.

But that's who I am and I won't change, because of the pain that I don't fear,

Cause I've been walking, through flames and burn enough to dry off my tears,

And the music which I paly now, has both melody and harmony for clear,

So I stand up while shouting at the world, "I've the best harmonized melody ever."

-Niki-

His Grace

 As the starry night begins, Little by little the darkness take control of the thoughts that are to be bright. I wish I could just ignore but still when the prayers I pray for his grace keep disappearing while leading me to this despair path of life, I wonder how longer do I have to believe that the hope once left me to be hopeless is to find behind the eyes of an unknown....

His grace....

                                         -Niki-