2AM

It's 2am

Should I call her?

To share my inner deep emotions, 

Which I have never been talked with anyone else before.

To tell why I am so depressed, 

Reason why I tried to kill myself.

As the doctor said I can be happy again, 

why I took those pills without any hesitation. 

I know she really cares,

But it's 2am now,

She's probably sleeping or studing

Or maybe she might be fighting an unknown battle as me.

Because if I call,

She will definitely come.

No matter how hard it is,

I will do the same for her.

But she lives her own life now.

We are not that 16 year old kids anymore.

Life is hard.

She is a soldier too.

If she comes to defend me, 

She will loose her own battle too.

So let me shut my mouth,

To keep this silence.

We are fighting together, 

Yet alone in our own battles.

You can't save anybody else

But only yourself. 

Nope..

It's not being selfish or egotistical 

I love her with all I have,

I know she do too.

That's why life is even lonelier,

And there's nothing you can do.

                                        -Niki-               

His Grace

 As the starry night begins, Little by little the darkness take control of the thoughts that are to be bright. I wish I could just ignore but still when the prayers I pray for his grace keep disappearing while leading me to this despair path of life, I wonder how longer do I have to believe that the hope once left me to be hopeless is to find behind the eyes of an unknown....

His grace....

                                         -Niki-